Tuesday, December 25, 2007
I like being off of school. (PS: This is my last Christmas break ever. Sadness.) I like being cozy inside. I like being with the family. I like going to a Christmas Eve service at 11pm. I like looking at our stockings. I like arguing about who will open their gift last and let the others go first.
Praise God for Christmas.
Without His coming, there would be absolutely no reason for me to celebrate.
Indeed--celebration and thanksgiving and praise must be my reaction.
I'm so comforted:
"As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear Him; for He knows how we are formed, He remembers that we are dust." Psalm 103:13-14
I'm so thankful:
"If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast." Psalm 139:9-10
Again, praise God!
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Can I just say that my roommates are wonderful?
As long as I can say that my roommates are A-MAZING!
And as long as I can says that my roommates are AWESOME!
Hey you! Yeah, I’m talking to you! I love you!
I’m so drained! I want to sleep for a long time . . .
Let’s boycott school and sleep till Thanksgiving . . .
Sounds fine with me!
God just gave me a great feeling of peace and love for life, despite the stresses! He’s so good!
Girls, I love our time together!
Translation: Me too!
Thanks for the translation for those of us who are not Spanish-speaking!
I guess I’ll let it slide this time.
Jesus = My Prince of Peace
= My Comfort & Shelter
= My Everything
= My Lover
= My Sustainer
= My Great Provider
= Unswervingly faithful
= Incredibly gracious
= My Rest!
= My Trust
= My Peace
= My Constant
= My Refuge!
= My Hope
= My Faithful One
= My Restorer
= My All in All
I'm going to miss our room a lot . . . I miss the girls already.
Thanks for everything, ladies. I [heart/stomach/kidney etc.] you both. :) Praise God for the time we did have together.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Four down and none to go. I'm done with my finals! Classes are complete: conducting, finance, accounting, income tax, and math. The end. I'm free.
Looking forward to delicious quality time with the roommates this evening. God is good . . . and it's going to be hard to say goodbye.
"The intricacies of His sovereign will and the pace at which He effects it--'deliberate speed, majestic instancy'--are beyond me now, but I am sure His plan is in operation."
Praise the Lord.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
- I haven't been to the gym in about two weeks. Maybe longer than than. That's the first time I've gone that long without exercising (besides dancing) in my entire college career.
- I skipped three classes in one day. That's an amazing first for me. If you only knew my views of skipping when I was a freshman . . .
- I wore PJ pants in public for the first time ever last weekend. And I did it during rounds in four dorms. I almost couldn't do it . . . I was just about to change into jeans . . . but Holly made me. I'm glad she did. I feel like I conquered a fear.
- I wrote a paper and printed the completed project in one sitting. A three-page paper on my opinion of the current tax code. And I did not make up an opinion; I actually have one.
- I was going to write that I lost a glove for the first time this semester (which is not an unusual occurrance for me). But, tonight I found it. I lost it in the lining of my new coat. I guess it's the first time I've ever done that.
- I did a ballet piece on Bethel's stage. I've been waiting four years to do that.
Class update. I'm surviving . . . still breathing. Three projects due tomorrow. Three tests between Monday and Tuesday. Two are cummulative. None of my study guides are done yet. It's going to be a fun weekend.
Pushing through to the finish.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Breathe. Just breathe. In and out.
Shekinah Glory performed for a men's basketball halftime on Friday night. I was slightly nervous when the music didn't start right away. (Okay. I was very nervous. I could only think about what happened two years ago). But, they eventually got it working and I had a blast dancing. I think all of the girls enjoyed it. Yay for praising God in different ways!
I was encouraged on Friday by a not-so-random thought. Jesus is my friend. I was also encouraged as I reminded myself that I am so blessed. Here I am: in America, going to a Christian private school, learning and earning a degree, dancing, and serving girls. I am so blessed . . . and I choose to focus on that instead of the general craziness.
Only 9 more days at school. Then the stress will end. And half of my senior year will be done. And I can go home. Yet, my time with Holly will be over. Sadness in the midst of sweetness. (Holly--my amazing roommate of 4ish years--I'm going to miss you greatly.)
This is my anthem; this is my song.
The theme of the stories I've heard for so long.
God has been faithful; He will be again.
His loving compassion, it knows no end.
Praise God. Just because.
Just because He is worthy and worth it all.
I give all honor to Him.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Monday, December 3, 2007
- slept in until 9am (skipped Finance and Chapel)
- 9-11am: get ready, breakfast, talk to Mom, tax problems, and e-mails for Shekinah
- 11am-12pm: Conducting class
- 12-1pm: Math class
- 1-2pm: work in the Semester Abroad Office
- 2-3pm: Federal Income Tax class
- 3-3:30pm: nap
- 3:30-5pm: prepare for Insiders study
- 5-7:30pm: dinner at Chinese buffet with Semester Abroad office staff
- 7:30-8pm: study for accounting test
- 8-8:30pm: talk to Gary
- 8:30-9pm: study for test
- 9-10:30pm: Insider Bible study
- 10:30pm-12:30am: study for test
- asleep by 1am
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
- up at 6:30am, get ready for the day
- 7-8am: study
- 8-9:30am: Accounting test #4
- 9:30-10:30am: work on Finance study guide in the computer lab
- 10:30-12am: devotions at Sufficient Grounds
- 12am-1pm: lunch with Lindsay Johnson (one of my girls from Shekinah Glory)
- 1-3pm: work in the Semester Abroad office and talk to my RD, Julie
- 3-5pm: study for Finance test (Wed @ 8am)
- 5-6pm: talk with roommates and Math problems
- 6-8pm: small group Shekinah Glory practice
- 8-10pm: study for Finance test in the library
- 10-11pm: shower, dinner and Math problems
- asleep by 11:30pm
Monday, November 26, 2007
In Chapel this morning, Dr. Dendiu spoke about the deadly sin of sloth. He put up pictures of sloths on the screen. Ug—for some reason, they give me the willies and make me cringe. The title of this blog refers to something Dr. Dendiu said: sometimes we put off things until later . . . we have 4 weeks left in the semester . . . now is later.
I sure enjoyed my Thanksgiving break with the family. Here are the top five happenings.
- Family Time. I think I can safely call it a Bruce-Eberly-family-reunion. We just had so much fun being together. Praise God! We sat around and talked and laughed and bothered. Mom and I did a puzzle. We all watched “Ratatouille” on Wednesday night after we ate dinner with Grandma. We snacked on chips and dip and pop on Thursday. We cooked together. On Sunday, we got our Christmas tree and decorated the house. Wonderful memories. I love my family so much.
- Friends Time. It was also time for a friends reunion. Christina, Justin, and Lindsay were all home from college. The Revolution college group had a party Wednesday night. I think it officially started when the Eberlys showed up around 9:30. We line danced for about 2 hours. My feet hurt but it was worth it. Especially since I won the competition dance.
Saturday night was the 8th (or something like that) annual game night after Thanksgiving at the Eberlys. We played Midnight Madness, Knot, and President. It was so good to be with the old group again. Praise God for friends after all these years.
- Chat Time. I met with quite a few people over break. Brad and Brenda welcomed me into The Black Hole on Tuesday. Grandma and I met for coffee on Friday afternoon. Saturday morning (from 9:30 to 12:30 actually) Chris, Alex and I caught up. I always wish there was more time to see people but I am thankful for the conversations that I d0 have—refreshing and encouraging.
- Mom Time. We spent four hours shopping on Friday. And no—we did not get up early. After a leisurely morning, we headed out to Sears, JCPenny, Khols, Plato’s Closet, and Wal-Mart. I sure enjoyed time with my mom over the weekend. She is such an encouragement to me and so quick to be my friend.
Now is the time to finish the semester strong. I also desire to finish well. But things just keep piling on: RA responsibilities, floor events, Shekinah Glory performances, class projects, and decisions. In the midst of it all, I am overwhelmed by God’s faithfulness.
Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father;
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;
As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be.
One last piece of news: my fish, William Wordsworth, passed away while I was away on break. I guess it is partly my fault because I didn’t want the hassle of bringing him home. (Oops!) My dad said a few words as he flushed him away—goodbye Willie!
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
The house is definitely much louder than my dorm in the morning. I did sleep in until 8 o'clock, though. That's better than 6:30 or 7. Besides, I was asleep by 10:45pm. Whoever invented sleep is a genius.
Can I just say that I'm glad to be with my family? Mom and I enjoyed our 2-hour conversation on the way home. I started giving Jordan a hard-time right away. Dad was happy to see me. Jess pretended like she was upset but I know she was glad to see me, too. We enjoyed snuggling on the cough while watching "The Waltons."
I'm thankful for the cross. Lately, I've realized even more the magnitude of what Jesus did for me. How small is my understanding of the true humility and greatness and impact of His death. And how little I truly understand how much He really loves me. Thanks for reminding me of that, Jess.
I'm out. Time to do some more relaxing.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Be Thou my dignity, Thou my delight.
Thou my soul's shelter, Thou my high tower.
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.
Classes are going well. I tried to work ahead this week. A homework-free Thanksgiving break is the goal. I finished two projects and a paper ahead of time. Conducting is keeping me hopping. If everyone else continues to not practice, then I'm in good shape. We learned about linear programming in Math class. Accounting is clicking as it did my sophomore year. I love all of the number crunching. Federal Income Tax is my least favorite class. I'm glad I studied until 2am on Tuesday night for the test on Wednesday. My Senior Experience paper is done and turned in, so I'm basically done with that class besides attending the rest of them. There is only a test and a project left in Management Finance.
The best lunch of the week: tuna/egg salad on toast. Quick, easy, and oh-so-delicious. I was one happy girl.
Thursday night Brooke and I hosted a game night for the 2nd floor girls. We played Midnight Madness, Spoons (which I semi-won), and Apples-to-Apples (which I got three cards on). We also ate fun-fetti (sp?) cake and candy. Good times.
I asked Holly on Thursday if I could spend the day with her today. We went to church at Grace and ate dinner with her family at her grandparent's afterwards. Then we crashed at her empty home for a movie. We finished watching "Wives and Daughters"--a 5-hour mini-series that we started last night. I definitely recommend the movie, by the way.
Only a day and a half until I come home.
I'm ready to be home.
Friday, November 9, 2007
When it starts to get cold, nothing beats a warm drink. Raspberry herbal tea. Any kind of herbal tea. Earl Grey. Chai. Hot apple cider. Coffee. Hot chocolate. Steamers. It's all delicious.
During our roommate bonding time last night, Holly, Charity, and I discussed this. Atmosphere is important to me. For example, I can't stand flourescent lights. Decorations and homey aspects of a room also contribute to the atmosphere.
Listening to music is definitely a comfort issue for me. I always play music. I like finding new artists and new songs. I like cleaning to music. I like dancing to music. I like relaxing to music.
Definitely something that I enjoy. Peanut-butter. Chips & salsa. Apples. Salads with cottage cheese. Rice. Chocolate. Bread. Cookies--especially white-chocoalate-macadamia-nut or Tim-Tams. Popcorn.
Some other random comfort aspects: good friends, family, home, fleece blankets, candles, coffee shops, libraries, good books, journaling, pillows, Quiet Times, fire in a fireplace, flowers, e-mails.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Praise God for help to have a good attitude. One of the other RAs asked me to cover for her because she wasn't able to be on-duty this past weekend. I wasn't having a very good attitude about it on Friday . . . but God is good. I prayed about it and decided that I was going to do it joyfully even if I didn't feel like it.
Praise God for time with Gary over the weekend. We sure had a great time together--lots of laughing and time outside and talking. I'm glad that he beat me at the blow-up obstacle course at the Harvest Hootenanny. And I'm thankful that Gary was able to go to house church with me. But, I'm especially happy that we beat Charity and Nicole Freeman at Euchre (sorry, ladies!).
Praise God for a great Shekinah Glory performance Monday morning in Chapel. The girls did wonderfully. Everything came together. I so enjoyed dancing . . . as usual.
Praise God for the freedom to skip classes. Holly and I applied terrible peer pressure to each other and didn't go to Senior Experience last night. Tisk-tisk. It was wonderful to come back to the room after dinner and drink my coffee.
Praise God for our Insiders study.
Praise God for Reese's Pieces.
Praise God for the changing seasons (even though I'm not a big fan of the cold).
Friday, November 2, 2007
I'm on duty again this weekend. Thus the late night blogging. I have accomplished a lot this evening though: conducting homework, tax homework, finance homework, hard-boiled some eggs, laundry, and Sufficient Grounds run for pumpkin spice/cinnamon coffee.
Last night Holly, Charity, and I talked from 9-11:30pm. I guess we had some catching up to do. We put on comfy clothes, turned on the Christmas music, wrapped up in blankets, sipped our tea, and talked to our hearts content. Praise God for a safe room, a comfortable room, a happy room. I so enjoy time with my roommates.
Christmas music? Did I just write Christmas music? Yes, November 1st was the day. My family usually waits until Thanksgiving. But, Holly was biting-at-the-bit. I put my foot down and insisted on no earlier than November 1st. Charity is building her Ruckus collection, so we've been listening to a wonderful variety. "It's Christmas Time"--City on a Hill--that just takes me back . . .
RA responsibilities are stepping up. Many meetings and notes and delivering toilet paper and taking around Student Council ballots and lunches and chatting with girls. Brooke--my coRA--and I met for lunch on Tuesday to discuss some possible upcoming events.
Shekinah Glory is going so well. There is such great rapport among the girls. It's hard stopping the many conversations to continue rehearsal----a good problem. We perform for the first time on Monday in Chapel, "Everything/God in My Living." Please pray that God would be glorified.
Time to do another round with Danny.
Real quick. Guess what God's teaching me? To be content. It's such a good thing.
"On Christ the solid Rock I stand."
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
"[His compassions] are new every morning." Lamentations 3:23
The time of newness. Sunrise. Darkness replaced. Renewed strength. Beginning again. I ran to Tuckey to work-out this morning and pondered the wonder of the morning. I breathed in the crisp fall air and thanked God for a new day.
"In the morning, when I rise, give me Jesus."
Fall Break was crazy. Here's a tour: Revolution, dentist appointment, a viewing/funeral, dinner/baseball game with the family and Gary, doctor appointment, trip to Indy to visit Christina, haunted hay ride, Jordan's soccer tournament, church, shopping with Mom and Jess, and drive back with Gary. I think I need another break.
(PS: Chris---thanks for a wonderful time. Sorry I was exhausted, but I'm so glad I got to "hang in your world" for a while. You're a good friend, a tlf. Love you!)
"A little sea-bathing would set me up forever." Mrs Bennet, Pride and Prejudice. I do believe a sunrise on the beach is the best thing ever. (Yes--this quote is random but it's been stuck in my head. I had to slip it in somehow.)
This week has been kind of stressful, a culmination of many things. I feel exhausted physically and emotionally. Yet, God is good. My devotion times have been amazing: prayer for the N-people-group, "Velvet Elvis," Nehemiah, Hebrews. I also praise God for supportive friends. Holly and I talked for almost three hours on Tuesday. It was amazing to catch up, finally. And Gary is so understanding as I learn to be honest. Yes, again, God is good.
"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrews 4:16
God's grace is like the morning. With His grace comes the dawn of connection to God. Out of darkness into His wonderful light. Just like a new day, we are made new in Him and can draw near to God with complete confidence. Do I truly trust in this grace?
Ah, praise God for the morning.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
- Federal Income Tax: I took the second test yesterday. The multiple choice problems (15) took 25 minutes and the open book problems (5) took me 65 minutes. Whew. That's quite the test.
- Conducting: We had two exams this week. It's amazing how much practicing can help. I can feel the baton becoming an extension of my arm.
- Math: Logarithms was the topic for Wednesday. It actually clicked . . . such a great feeling.
- Intermediate Accounting: I didn't do great on the last test. When I called my Dad, he reminded me that in three years that grade won't matter.
- Managerial Finance: I wish this class was harder. We're learning about the time value of money right now. I did my homework for Wednesday at 1am that morning.
Such a gorgeous fall day. The colors are changing. It's breezy. Leaves are on the ground. I told Mom this morning when we were walking that I wish I could live in a place of perpetual fall.
Who was the idiot that planned a dentist appointment for 9am on the first day of break? That would be me. When I got there this morning, the electricity was out. They checked my appliance anyway and it's lookin' good. I still need to wear it about 18 hours a day.
Praise God. Make His praise glorious.
All praise to my "God Who Hears Prayer." Let me tell of all the wonderful things He has done for me. Most amazing of all, He has provided a way for me to be saved. If He never did another thing, His grace would be enough. I would still owe Him my life.
Amen--let it be so.
Friday, October 12, 2007
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. Ecc. 3:11
I don't know why I wait so long to update. Life is crazy, I guess. Classes are going well. I feel the change of the senior year and other things going on. I'm not quite as focused as I used to be . . . and yet I'm still learning, still enjoying my business subjects. Federal Income Tax is definitely my hardest class . . . too many rules and exceptions to the rules and exceptions to the exceptions.
In fact, the law requires that nearly everything be cleansed with blood, and without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness. Hebrews 9:22
I was able to go home unexpectedly last weekend. Don’t ask how I can fit so much into one weekend. Friday: drive back with Charity and her sisters, go with the family to Jason’s concert at Huntington. Saturday: do laundry, walk with Mom, run errands, go to Jason’s film shoot, visit Jess at Platos, spend the evening at the Miller’s with Gary. Sunday: church at CGS!, China meeting at the Miller’s, hang with G and then my mom at the Millers, go to bed early and sleep for 10 hours. Monday: dentist appointment and drive back to school with Mom.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Hebrews 12:1
Holly’s boyfriend, John Compton, is here for the week. I drove with her to Chicago to pick him up on Wednesday night. She was the driver; I was the navigator. (Thanks to my father we did not get lost.) We got back at 2am. (And I had an Accounting test at 8 the next morning.) I’m so happy for Holly. We played games last night: Catch Phrase and Nertz. Gary came. Holly romped on us all in Nertz—go figure.
What does "everything" mean? What exactly does this encompass? What do I mean when I say that God is "my everything"? The definition: "every thing or particular of an aggregate or total; all." Every bit of the entire thing. That's what God is to me.
Random thoughts: Shekinah Glory is going wonderfully. RA-ing is good. I love my roommates. I’m going to House Church with Charity this Sunday. This weekend is a homework weekend. Brooke and I need to deliver toilet paper to the girls. Charity, Nora, and I just watched “Big Fish” (amazing movie, Jason!). Conducting amuses me. I love this cooler weather! Naps are the best. Nora gave me a back massage on Monday night. I sure do enjoy coffee. God is good to me.
This has gone on quite long enough.
Congrats for making it through—if you did.
It's all good.
Monday, October 1, 2007
Can I just say that I had an amazing weekend with my sister? I sure did. From shopping and drinking coffee to long talks at Notre Dame and cutting her hair, my time with Jess was wonderful. Jessica--you're so much fun! Thanks for being my friend. Thanks for being honest . . . and for listening in turn. Thanks for spending your weekend with me. Love you!
Four late nights in a row is not good for me. I was on-duty again over the weekend. This means that me and a guy RA walk through the dorms three times each night: 6pm, 9:30pm, and 12am. So I don't get back to my room until 12:30am. I was going to take a nap this afternoon but I decided to be productive instead and to work on homework.
My Management Finance test went well this morning. The Conducting exercise also went well. I can't believe how nervous I get standing up in the front of the class to cue and conduct a hymn--"In the Bleak Midwinter."
What makes me come alive:
- the ocean
What makes you come alive? It's good to know these things.
Friday, September 28, 2007
State of Grace--the first occurrence of that infamous phrase. State of Grace is the dance company that I became a member of about eight years ago. We are based out of Washington, D.C. at the moment. Who knows when I'll dance with them again . . . it's always a God-thing, last minute . . . but I'm already looking forward to it.
Sufficient Grounds--the wonderful Bethel coffee shop. Thank goodness for some place on campus where I can "get away." I spent almost three hours there this morning, much-needed Jana-time. Tonight Holly, Charity, and I enjoyed some roommate bonding. H and C ate a late dinner while I sipped my mango yogurt smoothie. We started to make a list of all the ways we are similar. It's amazing we get along so well--all this perfectionism, over-analyzation, and oldest-sibling-characteristics in one room could be a scary thing.
Shekinah Glory--my wonderful Bethel dance team. There are twenty-five girls right now. It's pretty crazy but I'm enjoying it to the hilt. I just received information about possible Chapel performances for the future. Time to get started on the choreography. We're going to fill that auditorium with dancing.
Study Guide--So far, I've made three this year: applied math, income tax, and intermediate accounting. I think my study habits are solid. (Senior year--it's about time.) Now I know how I work best. No more do I need to spend hours and hours studying in the library . . . no longer do I want to do that.
"Something Good"--Okay. So this one doesn't really fit; but, I just had to mention my wonderful weekend. Gary and I explored Chicago on Saturday. It was a beautiful day--not a cloud in the sky--and the "happenings" were marvelous and the company was fabulous. Sorry, Holly. I do believe that I have the most amazing boyfriend ever.
Well, maybe it's my God Who makes it all so amazing.
So happy. So blessed.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
By the way, conducting class was cancelled today. I talked to Sue--my old boss in the Fine Arts Office--for awhile instead.
We watched "Anne of Green Gables" and "Anne of Avonlea" at Holly's home on Sunday. What delightful movies! "There's such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn't be half so interesting."
Shekinah Glory started off well last night. I enjoyed listening to the girls share and pray. Aerobics was funny, but a blast. New modern choreography went well--25 girls to teach in the same room is a dream-come-true.
Another by-the-way: my cold is much better. Also, my on-duty weekend finished well. Nate and I talked to a lot of people and only caught a few. Not much sleep but--hey--I'm at college.
It is a gorgeous day outside. And I'm wearing a cute outfit. And a class was cancelled. And I just thoroughly enjoyed my snack of pretzels and salt-free peanuts. I'm going to go sit outside and have my quiet time. It's a good day.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Shekinah Glory auditions were on Monday and Tuesday from 9:45-10:45pm. (Oh, the life of a college student—lovely late nights.) Ten girls came the first night and fifteen the second. I taught a hip-hop, a ballet, and a modern combination and gave the vision for the year. Monday morning I still didn’t have a verse but then 2 Cor. 9:12-15 jumped out at me—perfect! I’m excited about this year—I know with great confidence that God is with me as I lead.
Thursday was a day of conversations with five different girls. I praise God for the way He’s worked in my life in order that I might encourage others. I praise God for the honor of being an RA and the opportunities it affords. I praise God for girls who are seeking God and striving to please Him.
Working in the Semester Abroad Office is going well. Brent is in the Dominican Republic right now, so I’m holding down the fort. I only work for an hour or two every day, so it’s manageable.
Not much homework this weekend—praise the Lord! I’m on duty every night (from 6pm-12am) and I have a terrible cold, so I’m glad I don’t have a lot to do. I actually slept-in this morning until 10:15. That was amazing.
One night during Chapel, I was just browsing through the Gospels. John the Baptist—the radical—is one my favorite New Testament characters. I noticed that Matthew and Mark tell of his beheading . . . and Jesus doesn’t say a word. It served to remind me, again, of how my life is simply for the Father’s glory. That’s how Jesus lived his life here on earth; why should mine be any different? The servant must live as the Master lived.
I also ran across the verse: “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30) I love how Jesus says “come to me” and “learn from me.” Oh—how much I desire that He would teach me.
Friday, September 7, 2007
Our first Founders' girls event was last night . . . and I'd say the Pound Party was a success. Over thirty girls attended. We snacked on a variety of eatables: cookies, animal crackers with icing, banana bread, chocolate, fruit, nuts, candy . . . good food. The girls were wonderfully creative in their contributions. I made them play Knot and race. Good conversations. Yep--it was a great party.
I'm stalling until my ride home arrives.
I'm enjoying my classes so far. Not too bad. Although, in Conducting I was the last person picked for a practicing partner. That was sad/embarrassing/hurtful. "Don't cry, don't cry" I kept telling myself. I think that's one of the worst feelings in the world. But, no worries--I'm alright and I think I'm still going to enjoy the class.
There's not a lot of homework to do this weekend. I worked ahead as much as I could. I can't wait to see MIMETime and spend time with my family and make 3 dozen peanut-butter cookies and dance at church.
You are saved, not because of what you do, but because of what Christ did. And you are special, not because of what you do, but because of whose you are. And you are his.
Content in Him.
Monday, September 3, 2007
- Intermediate Accounting I (T-R from 8-9)
- Management Finance (M-W-F from 8-9)
- Applied Mathematics for Business (M-W-F from 12-1)
- Federal Income Tax (M-W-F from 2-3)
- Basic Conducting (M-W from 11-12)
- Senior Experience (M from 6-7)
Four hardcore numbers classes. Only one class on Tuesdays and Thursdays. An eight o’clock class every morning. One very expensive calculator. Four heavy textbooks and three light. One conducting baton. And lots of number crunching and problem-solving ahead of me. It’s going to be a good semester.
Let me not imagine that my love for You is very great if I am unwilling to do for a human being something very small.
Friday night was girls’ night. Nine of us ate dinner at Sufficient Grounds. We talked about our favorite class so far and our favorite candy bar. (Can you guess mine?) Then we played the question game, ordered specialty drinks (a raspberry/mango/yogurt smoothie for me), relaxed in our room, and watched “Take the Lead.”
Content. That’s the word. A state of heart in which you would be at peace if God gave you nothing more than he already has. Test yourself with this question: What if God’s only gift to you were his grace to save you. Would you be content?
Gary came to visit on Saturday and we spent a wonderful day together. I think this fortells of many such visits to come this year. :) Sunday I went to Grace Church with Holly and joined her family for an Italian spaghetti dinner. The rest of the day I worked on homework, talked to my mom, delivered toilet paper, and watched a movie with Nora.
Prayer for my girls:
Now I commit you to God and to the word of His grace, which can build you up and give you an inheritance among all those who are sanctified. Acts 20:32
Charity and I ran this morning—down to the river and back up Main Street. This weather is so beautiful. I’m looking forward to another good day—praise God for a three-day weekend!
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Most of the girls in my building are here. It's so nice to hear feet and people and laughter. I'm going to like all these girls a lot. I know it's going to be a good year.
Backing up. Moving in the freshmen was quite the experience. It rained . . . it poured . . . we got drenched (as did their stuff) . . . and it was a blast. I probably should not have carried so many heavy things; my shoulders and back were complaining later. I guess they still can’t handle work like that. Thanks to Nora's massages and my ice pack, I'm feeling much better.
Side note. Brooke and I are only in charge of 51 girls, not 52. My bad.
Exciting news. Holly and Charity and I are all finally together! I love my two roommates! Charity and I had some sweet times over the weekend—at Chicago and chatting in our room and walking to Dollar General. I know more wonderful memories to come with both of them.
Last night Brooke, Rachel, Jenny, and I went to Rachel’s house for dinner. She lives in Chesterfield, about an hour away. Fish on the grill. Great conversations. Laughing at an SAT vocabulary CD. Good times.
Sunday all of the RAs went to Chicago with the freshmen blocks. Cities are one of my favorite places ever, as is water—and I got to see both in the same day! I enjoyed getting to know a few freshmen better. Ten of us walked to Navy Pier, ate lunch (fried rice and an iced coffee for me), and then walked up and down Michigan Ave.
I love the wide eyes I get when I tell the freshmen that I’m a senior. It makes me feel old and experienced, although I’m really neither of those. My name is so hard to remember, so I started telling them “Jana Banana” as a memory aid in hopes that will help. My luck—it will be spread around campus in a few days.
Time to slip outside for some me-and-God time. Oh. Yes.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Random happenings from the past week:
We served at Center for the Homeless on Friday and Saturday. I stacked chairs, organized cabinets, cleaned dirty dishes, played tag with kids, cut up tomatoes and cantaloupe, let girls play with my hair, and served lunch (which was my favorite part).
Sunday we had worship and a short devotion together and then enjoyed an amazing buffet brunch at Tippecanoe Place. Amazing food! I spent the afternoon with God . . . much needed and so encouraging.
I’ve been to 16 sessions so far for RA training. We’re learning about everything from Exploring Leadership and Emergency Procedures to Conflict Resolution and Mission Statements. So much information is packed in my head right now.
I really like my RA/RD team. My co-RA is Brooke Gilbert (who actually grew up in Leo). The other RAs in the apartment next to us are Jenny and Rachel. Together, Brooke and I are in charge of 52 girls. Our RD is Julie. She and her husband, Travis, are the RDs for the Founders Village apartments. The guy RAs are Zach K., Nate, Adam, Danny, and Zach B. It’s a good team. We ate dinner together last night and played Taboo and Fast Scrabble.
Just so you know . . . even though I love words and I love to write . . . I stink at word games. Taboo. Scattergories. Fast Scrabble. Yep—I’m awful. Thank goodness I'm not playing to win.
Some other things that happened: CPR training, leveling the sand volleyball court, shopping for dorm decorations, playing fast scrabble, Ritters excursion, role playing/responding to situations, and a bus tour around Mishawaka.
Honestly, I’m not quite sure what I’ve gotten myself into with this RA thing. Can I do this? I’m not so sure. However, I was reminded today that I may not be able to do this . . . but God sure can. Trust God. Love people. Leave room for grace. That’s about all there is to it.
He is a gracious God.
Oh—may I not forget that amazing truth.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
2: pictures already hanging on the walls
3: desks in our living area
4: hours to basically unload and unpack everything
5: minutes to listen to my alarm after my nap
6: packages of lightbulbs in the cabinet
7: bags of cookies from Grandma in the freezer
8: people bowling tonight
9: months until I'll live at home again
10: minutes until I should be in bed
19: pairs of shoes currently in my closet
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Vacation in Virginia was a great time with extended and immediate family. Highlights include: laughing with Jessica, kayaking in the mountains, lots of good food, shopping in the quaint Lexington downtown, being bothered by Jordan and Dad, spending an entire day reading and sunning, driving in the mountains, talking to Mom, and pineapple shakes.
I had lots of good reading time on the trip: Insiders, In the Grip of Grace, Great Expectations, the Bible. There seems to be one consistent theme. I am learning that failure and weakness and imperfection in me grants Jesus a door to be Who He is: my Savior. “Our hunger, then, is not a yearning to be avoided but rather a God-given desire to be heeded. Our weakness is not to be dismissed but to be confessed.” (Max Lucado) I truly need Him. "How gracious He will be to you when you cry for help!" (Isaiah)
One more day of work. One more week before I go back to Bethel College for my last year. One more Sunday and Wednesday with my church family. One week to pack up all of my belongings—headed for the attic or the dorm room. That last one scares me the most at the moment. I haven’t even printed my packing list yet.
I had a thought tonight. The more I can accept God’s grace, the more I will be able to be gracious to others. I’m not so good at that, however this thought encourages me to keep at understanding His grace. Perhaps slowly I will learn to share a fraction of that grace with those around me.
Okay. Time to work on my resume. I have one interview tomorrow and then another on Friday for after I graduate. Oh Lord—help me and give me wisdom.
In His amazing grace.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Shout-Out to Unleashed, Rev and Others
Thanks for a great weekend at the Dunes. It really was wonderful. I loved the water, clay, sand, reading, Euchre, pudgy-pies, sleeping in a tent, sunsets, massages, sunning, cold water, running . . . Good times.
Shout-Out to Jeremy Camp
Thanks, sir, for your great music. I've been listening to your new CD--Beyond Measure. It's been an encouragement to me.
I know that I’ve been given more than beyond measure.
I come alive when I see beyond my fears.
I know that I’ve been given more than earthly treasure.
I come alive when I’ve broken down and given you control.
Shout-Out to Megan, two Ashleys, Lindsay, Alex, Chris, Jessica, Brad, Brenda . . . and I'm sure I'm missing some others . . .
Thanks girls for random coffee outings, processing sessions, lunch at the park, walks, and disclosures at Taco Bell. I've enjoyed meeting with you and getting to know you a bit better.
Shout-Out to Gary S.
Hey--nice game on Monday. 10 run rule. That's pretty amazing!
I think I'm hoarse now. Enough shouting.
Praise God for His faithfulness.
Friday, July 20, 2007
Last Friday Jordan, Gary, and I rode bikes downtown on the Rivergreenway. I love downtown and it was a beautiful evening to bike.
Saturday afternoon Jason, Jordan and I swam at the Arlington Park pool. (We have passes now because my Grandma lives there.) I watched them play "21" and then resigned myself to being dunked multiple times. Yay for big younger brothers! They sure make me laugh. We sunned and watched Jordan dive off the diving board. He's good.
That evening we joined the Revolution for games, a movie, and fellowship at the Schenkes. Password, Mao, and Spoons. "Bourne Supremacy." I think I had a migraine towards the end of the night but it was still fun.
Mr. Nelson did an excellent job teaching on Sunday morning. I was definitely challenged not to portray Christianity as easy or to make an easy conversion . . . I still need to do more processing.
Mom and I enjoyed our Sunday afternoon: napping, cleaning, and shopping. Three of my favorite things. G and I ran errands later on and just talked. An "Extreme Days" viewing finished out the evening. "Well, you were very persistent."
"Life gave me lemonade and I can't imagine why. Pour it on a summer day beneath a tangerine sky. I live life without pretending. I'm a sucker for happy endings. Thanks for the lemonade!" Chris Rice
Monday, July 16, 2007
"To the saint personal insult becomes the occasion of revealing the incredible sweetness of the Lord Jesus."
"My vision of God depends upon the state of my character. Character determines revelation."
"It must be God first, God second, and God third, until the life is faced steadily with God and no one else is of any account whatever."
"It will be a big humiliation to realize that I have not been concerned about realizing Jesus Christ, but only about realizing what He has done for me."
"Dare I really let God be to me all that He says He will be?"
"The Christian life is gloriously difficult, but the difficulty of it does not make us faint and cave in, it rouses us up to overcome."
"Thank God He does give us difficult things to do! His salvation is a glad thing, but it is also a heroic, holy thing. It tests us for all we are worth. Jesus is bringing many 'sons' to glory, and God will not shield us from the requirements of a son. God's grace turns out men and women with a strong family likeness to Jesus Christ, not milk-sops. It takes a tremendous amount of discipline to live the noble life of a disciple of Jesus in actual things."
May you be encouraged. May that spur you on. May you live a dangerous and unconventional Christian life. Most importantly, may you know Jesus Christ and live for His glory.
Amen--let it be so.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Today I wrapped my sandwich of peanut butter and honey in plastic wrap. We ran out of sandwich baggies at home. It’s amazing how such a simple act can bring on a wave of Aussie-remembering. I wrapped all of my lunches in plastic wrap—the big roll of it sitting on the metal trolley—every morning.
I've already worked over 350 hours at the Innovation Center this summer.
I remembered the name that Australians call Americans: "septic tanks." Because it rhymes with "yank" and a yank is an American. Funny rhyming system, huh?
Quite a few games were played with the Stauffers last week. Let's just say that I'm glad I don't have to win and still enjoy playing even when I lose royally. Apples to Apples: I didn't do too terribly. The game is growing on me. Pass the Pigs: My first time ever playing and I came in third place. Scattergories: I think I try too hard at this game. I stink at it. But I amazingly still like to play. Go figure.
Did you know that even though some things are a long time in coming, they are still definitely worth the wait? I'm just amazed at how faithful and loving my God is to me. Amazed.
In His grace,
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
I keep thinking that I have to work tomorrow and then I remind myself---Woo-hoo!!! A day in the middle of the week off of work. I adore paid holidays.
I started typing quotes today at 8am. By 2pm, my eyes wouldn't stay open any longer and I couldn't concentrate. So, I helped one of the guys water the flowers and the bushes. It took over an hour and a half. Any excuse to be outside and to have a break from typing.
Mom and I went to Jordan's game in Berne on Saturday. We browsed the shops downtown before the game started--so fun. That evening my friend Nora from school came to visit. Gary joined us in a grand dinner-making effort: baked ziti, salad, and bread. Then Nora, Jess, Jordan, and I walked through Headwaters Park downtown and took lots of pictures.
Here are some shots from my last State of Grace performance. Goodness, I didn't know I could look so mean.
Friday, June 29, 2007
You find the strength to stop, you bless instead of curse
When doubting floods your soul, though all things feel unjust
You open up your heart, you find a way to trust
That's a little stone, that's a little mortar
That's a little seed, that's a little water
In the hearts of the sons and the daughters
The kingdom's coming
In the waking up and trying, in the laying down and dying
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
"But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of Him." 2 Cor. 2:14
Praise God! It's not me (and can never be me). I can never earn it or deserve it. He leads me because of what Jesus did. I am simply the humble vessel of His glorious gospel. I truly owe him my life, my allegiance, my love.
"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?" Matt. 16:26 Am I concerned about the eternal? About the kingdom of God?
On to other (somewhat less-important) things . . . I helped the other interns pick up trash on our property for 45 minutes this morning. It was delicious; I enjoy every chance I can get to be outside. I sang to myself and half-filled a trash bag with random pieces of garbage. The straws that I found confused me the most: how in the world do they get there? Do people spit their straws out the window when they're done drinking? Odd. I also have lovely blisters now from walking around in not-yet-broken-in sandals. Ouch.
I spent over an hour last night choreographing for dance tonight. After the little girls' ballet lessons, I'm meeting with some older girls to just dance for fun. We're learning a ballet/modern piece to a song by Sara Groves and a jazz/hip-hop piece to a song by Ayiesha Woods. I haven't choreographed in a while, but I was having a blast once I got into it.
The weekend was great! So many fun things. Rollerblading at the Roller Dome with Gary. Lunch with Ashley Geiser at Shoaff (beautiful sun!). Sushi and the "All for One" play with my Mom. Biking/running/walking on Saturday morning. Afternoon and evening with the Stauffer family. Nursery Sunday morning with 15 crazy toddlers. Two and a half hour nap. Lindsay's graduation party. Party at the Wallin's house.
Can I just say that I love summer?
PS: G and Sally----my name was ranked 971 this year and nonexistent in 2003. Sally and I both "beat" you, G. You can stop boasting now. :)
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Jason and I had a great laugh at work last week. We visited the downtown library with three other guys from work. The head researcher met with us for three hours and he was . . . interesting . . . to say the least. We talked about it the whole way back to work and both of us were laughing so hard that we cried. Good times.
Brad said that Jess and I need to start a post-it note conversation because we never see each other anymore. I usually leave in the morning before she gets up and then I go to bed before she gets home again. Sometimes I miss her a lot. I'm definitely feeling the need for some good Jana&Jess time.
Last Thursday Mom and I spent some time together. We made dinner and cleaned up and talked and just generally enjoyed each other's company. Friday night we went to watch Emma's softball game. Saturday I let Mom put me to work for five hours: errands, cleaning, and cooking. I don't mind helping, especially when we go at it together.
Jordan is my big little brother. I've enjoyed watching a few of his baseball games. Last Wednesday he talked and talked to me about his experiences helping with the Survivor Sports camp. I loved to hear about it. I'm sure enjoying becoming his friend.
On Father's Day (what a great dad I have!) we helped my grandma unpack in her new condo (which is 8 minutes from our house, instead of 30 minutes). I fell asleep on the couch when we got back home. Later Mom, Jess, Jason, and I played euchre while we waited for the ribs to cook. Oh, do I love barbecue ribs!!! After dinner we watched "The Prestige." Good movie but I was not in the right mood. I got too scared and it took them 10 minutes to explain everything to me at the end.
I love my family!
I've been reading 2 Corinthians the last few days. I don't think I've ever focused on it before. Good stuff. Clay. Weaknesses. God's glory. That's what it's all about.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Knock and it shall be opened unto you. Draw nigh to God.
Knock--the door is closed, and you suffer from palpitation as you knock.
Cleanse your hands--
knock a bit louder, you begin to find you are dirty.
Purify your heart--
this is more personal still, you are desperately in earnest now--you will do anything.
have you ever been afflicted before God at the state of your inner life? There is no strand of self-pity left, but a heartbreaking affliction of amazement to find you are the kind of person that you are.
it is a humbling business to knock at God's door--you have to knock with the crucified thief.
To him that knocketh, it shall be opened.
Friday, June 8, 2007
I'm sure you've noticed the theme: grace. Grace. This new title is so relevant. I have been granted grace. I am saved by grace. His grace is sufficient and more than enough. His grace still amazes me.
The weather is nasty. But I don't mind. I quite enjoy storms. However, I would rather be at home, curled up on the couch watching a movie (preferably The Inheritance) than here at work.
I finally was able to talk to my Long Island friend, Amy. It had been way too long since our last conversation but we picked up right where we left off. My Australia-sister-for-four-months is really an amazing young lady. I'm so glad our friendship is continuing strong.
Gary and I went to the downtown library last night. It's amazing! (And the company wasn't too shabby either.) I think I have a new favorite place. Jess and I decided that we need to go spend 3 hours there on a Sunday afternoon . . . soon. In a library I love to browse the aisles, find a book, sit in the aisle and read a bit, and then find another book to begin all over again. Sometimes I grab an armful of interesting books and find a comfy place to read.
Sean's graduation party is tonight. Excited to spend time with the CGS group.
In His grace,