Sunday, April 27, 2008
It hit me.
If God cares enough to go after Jonah when Jonah was disobeying God's will on purpose, then how much more will God show me which way to go when I'm actively desiring His will? Why am I afraid that I'll miss it somehow?
I just keep walking. And He is faithful to guide me. I trust this to be true. I trust Him to be trustworthy.
Guess what? I'm really not afraid or nervous or worried. I'm just excited to see where He's going to lead and what He's going to do. Whatever it is. It'll be good.
Friday, April 25, 2008
This morning was our last Chapel. Holly reminded me of that while I was getting ready. Certainly a bittersweet realization. I was drawn into worship with my fellow Bethel-ians as I remembered the reality of Jesus' sacrifice for me. "Stand in awe and worship. Raise your voice and worship. Come adore the King of kings and Lord of lords."
There's this nagging voice in the back of my head that says--Jana, why aren't you being productive? I keep reminding it that I don't have to be productive right now. It's okay to take some time to relax and enjoy this time.
Just so you know--I now have a blister on the opposite foot, same toe. It's from running. I think my roommates are tired of hearing me whine about it. Pain in the feet is not fun. That's what I get for dancing and exercising. :)
More important than my soon-to-be-completed Bethel career is this overwhelming knowledge of my completeness in Jesus. There's nothing I can do or be . . . and that's okay. He did it all for me.
He was delivered to death for my sins and was raised to life for my justification. Therefore, since I have been justified through faith, I have peace with God through my Lord Jesus Christ, through whom I have gained access by faith into this grace in which I now stand. And I rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Romans 4:25-5:2
Signed by a very happy me.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
The weather is so beautiful. I am definitely in a camping mood. The other night Charity and I were walking back to our room and decided it was perfect bonfire weather. Then we swapped rain-in-the-tent stories.
I hurt another toenail while dancing. I think that's the third time this year. It's slightly painful--why do I do this to myself. Let's hope it's the grow-out kind and not the fall-off kind. I'm sure you wanted to hear all of that.
My accounting class is over. Ballet is finished. Insiders Bible study is finished. I am almost done! The end is in sight. I've almost made it! The culmination has almost arrived.
Holly moved back in today. I'm looking forward to some good memories in the time we have left together. Good times. We had a spring-roommate photo shoot on Sunday afternoon. Thanks for being an excellent photographer, Nora!
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery. Galatians 5:1
I choose to trust Jesus.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Where did the week go? Time is flying.
Here are the top eight happenings of the past six days, in no particular order.
- My dear friend Holly is home! Because one of her flights was delayed, I was unexpectedly able to go to the airport on Thursday night. It was so good to see her face and just to know that she's home. We have a lot of catching up to do but I'm waiting patiently. Coffee date next week, Holly?
- Business Policy is the current bane of my college existence. ("Bane": a source of harm or ruin; curse.) My team met Wednesday and Thursday night to practice our presentation. That went okay but the 75-page-paper is annoying me. Some of the guys have trouble with plagiarism and I even had to make a phone call about it. I do not enjoy confrontation. And I do not particularly enjoy editing 130 footnotes.
- Friday was crazy. My Business Policy group presented at 8:30am. Shekinah Glory danced in Chapel at 10am. Mom and Jess came to watch and we left immediately following. We drove to Fort Wayne, stopped at home for 15 minutes, picked up Dad, and then picked up Jason on the way down to Indy. We hung out there (more info in #4) and then drove back to Fort Wayne, arriving at 2am. This morning Mom and I left the house at 8am to drive back to Bethel.
- All the above craziness was completely worth it. I so enjoyed dinner with the family at PF Changs and walking around downtown Indy. Shrimp is delicious and I love cities! Next, we went to a coffeehouse concert—invited by our wonderful friends, Greg and Liz. Another friend, Chris, was able to come. Conversation and music and iced lattes and friendship—it was a good night.
- Things are wrapping up. Ballet is finished. During my last speech on Tuesday, I tried to convince freshmen and sophomores to start saving for retirement soon after graduation. Shekinah Glory is done and what a wonderful four years of dancing it has been. Financial Peace class is done. Brook and I organized one last dorm event: games and ice cream in the hallway.
- Tonight I watched John Michael (Cauffman) Swartz play wheelchair basketball. It was such a blessing—he is good! I said hi to my friend Rose and talked to her niece/my friend Melissa for awhile.
- I cheered for my roommates this week. Charity presented for the final stage of her psychology Research Methods class. What a culmination of an entire year of work! You did it, Charity! And I also listened to Megan play the trumpet for Performance Class. I most certainly have a new appreciation for the instrument and it was so much fun to hear her play.
- Is it apparent yet that I was a little busy this week? By Thursday night I was feeling pretty stressed and exhausted. The straw that almost broke the camel’s back: I accidentally left my cell phone in a school van and I had to call Campus Safety to get the key. And I’m not sleeping very well because there is so much on my mind. Hopefully this next week will be better. It shouldn’t be quite as crazy.
That's enough info on the
college undergrad life of Jana Alexis.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
My Sunday afternoon consisted of devotions, briefly finishing an accounting study guide, talking to Jessica for a bit, and reading for three hours. I got stuck in a book . . . and finished it. Not exactly the most productive thing to do but terribly relaxing.
The sermon at church this morning was so good. Pastor Rick continued the series on David and Goliath. I was challenged to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus: "Giant killers are consumed with the reality/magnificence of God!" Notes from the service:
- "David sees the giant, mind you; he just sees God more so." Max Lucado
- Tackle your giant with eternal motive!
- It's not about your "Goliath"; it's about your God.
- If people around us watch us be defeated by our giants, what does it say about our God?
- Tackle your giant with absolute confidence!
- You are fighting an already defeated enemy.
- What is your mind full of? Is it full of how big your God is?
- It's time to move into action. Refuse anything short of decapitation.
- "You face giants by facing God first." Max Lucado
Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand, or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens? Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket, or weighed the mountains on the scales and the hills in a balance?" Isaiah 40Have I ever said how much I love my roommates? I sure enjoyed our laughs and talks this evening. I don't have pictures with both of them (we'll have to remedy that), but here's one picture that makes me smile.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Jana isn't too happy with this weather. "Rain, rain, go away." Although, it does make the grass greener and that makes it seem more like spring. Spring. She's ready for it. She wants to study by the pond.
Jana sure enjoyed her birthday weekend. She and her mom did things they've wanted to do since freshman year: walking downtown Mishawaka and in the cemetary, going to Grace Church, sitting at Sufficient Grounds, shopping, and eating at Coldstone. Jana never really thought about being this age . . . it feels different.
Hope. "Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope . . . The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him . . . Let him bury his face in the dust--there may yet be hope." Lam. 3:21-29
He is Hope Itself.
Friday, April 4, 2008
It's been a good week. I can't believe everything I can cram into 5 days. And all while feeling sick. I contracted this lovely cold on Tuesday . . . and it's been plaguing me ever since. I've been in a fog all day. Not fun. DayQuil and NyQuil are amazing.
Last night was my birthday present to me. ("I'm so happy!") Charity and I joined 98 others from Bethel College on a bus trip to see "Wicked" in Chicago. INCREDIBLE! It was the best night ever: coffee shop for dinner, latte-to-go, Millenium Park with the ladies, photo shoot, Borders, the show!, talking with Charity on the way home. I love the city. I love my friends. I love the stage. I am so blessed.
Classes are coming quickly to a close. Only 15 more days in the classroom at Bethel. Ever. That's an extremely bittersweet thought. However, I must say that I probably won't miss my Business Policy class. We turned in the 3rd draft of our paper today. It was 75 pages. We have yet to prepare for the half-hour presentation . . . "growl."
Counting down the days until graduation (28!) makes me think of another countdown--this one completely lovely: my wonderful, much-missed, ex-roommate Holly Nicole is returning in only 14 days. I can't wait.
Hmm. I hope this post isn't too scattered. I'm really out of it (you can ask my roommates for proof). A cold + getting to bed at 2am + a long week of writing papers will do that do you.
That's enough. I'm out.