Saturday, December 6, 2014

from cursing to worship

Tragedy.  Pain.
Sorrow.  Loss.

How long, Lord? Will You forget me forever?
    How long will You hide Your face from me?

Fist in the air. Why, God?
Where are You? Why this? Why now? Why her? Why them? Why me?

A heart wanting to curse. To turn away.
So many questions. Unanswered.
"Curse God and die!" ~ Job's wife (Job 2:9) 

How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
    and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
    How long will my enemy triumph over me?

And yet. A whisper of Hope.
A thread of Hope.

If one turns away from Him, then there is nothing and no one left to cling to.
He truly is our Only Hope.
And so, we cling. With our last prayer, our last breath, we hold on to Him.

Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
    Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,

and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”
    and my foes will rejoice when I fall.


But just clinging in belief is not enough in the end.
      Even the demons believe.....and curse.
We must cling and worship. Because He is worthy, we glorify Him.
We do not know "why?". But still, we are compelled to worship.
In sorrow and in pain, somehow (supernaturally) our hearts overflow with praise and adoration. Because       He      Is      God.
And we are not.

But I trust in Your unfailing love;
    my heart rejoices in Your salvation.

I will sing to the LORD,
    for He has been good to me. (Psalm 13)

to worship
I submit to you there are
only two possible human responses
to a Holy and Sovereign God.

1 comment:

  1. This is beautiful, Jana! I love that we have a choice in how we respond to unanswered questions, the reminder of our humanity, and the recognition of who our God is -- and we are "compelled" (I love that you used such a perfect word!) to adoration and praise.

    This post also reminds me of Psalm 42, which I wrote that poem "Yet" off of. :-) Thanks for sharing these thoughts directly from your heart!

    Much love.